Breast Aug. w/ Dr. Engler - couldn't be happier!, June 2, 2015, 1:01 pm
I had been unsatisfied with the appearance of my breasts since high school when they did not develop enough to balance out the proportions of my lower half. I began to seriously consider breast augmentation when I was about 22 years old, but wasn't sure if I wanted to willingly put my body through an unnecessary surgery. For two years I researched my options, and continued to struggle with my feelings. On one hand I wanted to do whatever I could to make my body look the way that I felt it was meant to look. On the other hand I continued to tell myself that I should just accept myself the way I am. I would go through periods of time where I tried to change my thinking and really focus on body positive thoughts, but it only lasted for a few months. No matter what I did I couldn't shake the desire to get the body I really wanted.
Finally, at 24, I went to my first breast augmentation consultation (not with Dr. Engler) and scheduled a surgery date. Part of me wanted to go through with the surgery, but I also felt like I wasn't ready. I still had these thoughts floating around in my head about how I should love myself for who I was. At that point, I was still struggling with the idea that surgery = low self esteem (not true by the way). I was also scared of all the potential complications and didn’t feel prepared to take those risks if I didn’t have to. For these reasons, I didn't go through with the surgery.
About 3 months later I was back to my old patterns, wishing that my body was more balanced and thinking that I should have gotten the surgery when I had the chance. What I realized is that I had been wishing for different breasts for several years, and obviously that desire wasn't going to go away. I wasn't going to wake up one morning and suddenly change my feelings. I also wasn’t going to wake up one morning and magically have the breasts I always wanted. If I wanted to stop the cycle of never-ending doubts and desires, I had to take charge of my situation. I decided that since my feelings about my breasts had persisted for this long, even after chickening out of my first surgery, it meant that I should really do something about it.
I began to look for a plastic surgeon in New York (the first surgeon was located elsewhere) and initially chose Dr. Engler because of all the wonderful reviews his previous patients had written. When I met Dr. Engler for my consultation, all the wonderful comments were confirmed. He seemed very warm and kind, and I felt like he immediately understood what I wanted. He was very honest about what he thought would be best for my body and I appreciated the thought he gave to my individual circumstances. Truthfully, it felt like I didn’t even have to explain myself very much. Dr. Engler just got it.
I made my surgery appointment with Dr. Engler and was in the operating room two weeks later. I finally felt like I was ready to make this happen, and I was completely confident that Dr. Engler would do a beautiful job. All of his previous patients had results that looked gorgeous, natural, and perfect for their body. I had no doubt that I would experience the same thing. On the day of my surgery I was very nervous. Dr. Engler and all of the staff were very kind and supportive and I felt like they genuinely wanted to make me feel better. Everything went perfectly and the first week of my recovery was a piece of cake. Dr. Engler checked on me several times a day; it was nice knowing that he really cared about how I was doing.
Currently, I am about three weeks post-op and couldn't be happier with my decision! Throughout the entire recovery process Dr. Engler and his staff have been unbelievably warm and caring. My results are amazing and I know that they are going to become even more beautiful over time. I am completely happy with my decision and even happier that I chose Dr. Engler for this important milestone. All of my previous fears were thrown out the window with this experience.
For the first time since I was a young teenager, I am not consumed every day with an endless parade of boob thoughts. I don’t have that nagging feeling in the back of my mind. I feel like I finally have the body that I was meant to have, and my mind is at peace. Maybe the best way to describe it is that I feel more like myself, even though that may not make any sense. I realized that changing yourself doesn't mean that you don't love yourself. Having the self-awareness and confidence it takes to move forward with plastic surgery meant that I knew what I wanted and what would make me happy. And if finding happiness isn't loving yourself, then I don't know what is. I owe all the happiness that I gained from my breast augmentation to Dr. Engler and his staff. I'm not sure that I would have had such a positive experience with anyone else. Thank you!